rough day

Today was an OK day. Kinda a downer.
A lot has been on my mind, and I am not sure who to turn to just yet. I need to get things straight in my head first.

*J*
Sweetie, don't be so vain. It has nothing to do with you. I am trying to tell you something very personal and somehow you don't get what I am saying and then on top of that you try to turn it around to make it about you. So pay attention, my patience is wearing thin.

*this afternoon: the words I couldn't speak*
I know I am selfish, but honestly I can't live my life without you. I don't want you to leave me, ever. I can't ask you to stay but you know how I feel. And if you must leave, its OK, I will learn to be OK. I love you and always will be here for you, even if you insist to be miles away.
Well that's all for today. With love as always_V